Love - A bittersweet pill

We broke up 2 months ago.After being together for two years it's not easy to just forget about it.After the break-up I ignored romantic movies,romantic songs,break-up songs and almost anything that would only add salt to my wounds.Instead I would watch action movies and listen to heavy metal.Silly maybe but I did anything to escape the hurt.

It feels so weird when everything that pre-occupied you with her during the relationship vanishes with it.No more smsing each other almost every minute,no more running to the shop at 11pm to recharge her sim so that she can call me,no more waiting for her to come back from her visit to her family,no more waiting to meet up and hang out,no more dreams.Only an emotional vacuum.

All the dreams we dreamt together about our future died with the relationship.

She was an amazing person.A really good soul who's kindness could be really touching.She's a doctor.I'm really proud of her.I loved everything about her.Sometimes I wonder whether I'll meet someone like her again.

I can't believe how two people can remain 'just friends' after breaking up).I don't believe in being this 'just friends' bullshit.She wanted to remain 'just friends' but I didn't want to.Had no interest in being 'just friends' and prolonging the hurt.So I changed my mobile number,email address etc.Haven't met her sinceNot that she wanted to.I don't have any hard feelings towards her.I understand why she went away.I miss her a lot sometimes.

It's been 2 months and I do watch romantic movies now.Romantic songs have found place in my playlist again.I seem to be doing well now.Touchwood.

Love is a bittersweet pill.It indeed is.

Poem : Embers Of Love

I wrote this poem in memory of my ex-girlfriend.We are not together anymore but I still have fond memories of her.

Embers Of Love


All those times that I spent with you,
Were the best moments ever in my life,
Never knew,never loved someone like you before,
Just hearing your voice left me mesmerised.


And how can I forget that monday,
When I met you for the very first time,
Butterflies in my stomach,
It was the best day ever of my life.


And being right next to you,
I couldn't take my eyes off you,
Pinched myself so hard,
If it was a dream then let it go on,
I just wanted and wanted that moment
to really hold on...


And now we're so close yet so far,
It really hurts to see you take a different path,
Although I knew you weren't mine completely,
I still loved you from the very core of my heart.


Looking back at those two years,
All the moments that we shared,
I'm glad that I met you,
You showed me what love was,
So only I know n I know the real meaning of this song.


All those times that I spent with you,
Were the best days ever of my life,
Never knew,never loved someone like you before,
I wish I could be right next to you for just one last time.